i already don’t write in a way i used to. in more than the half cases, i do not write, or it goes to the dedicated mailbox, which i never open.

the reader impacts the text. and i am not the best reader for my texts. i need no explanations. thus texts may be do not benefit from me being a reader.

on the other hand, regular reader i can imagine needs too much explanations, and that limits me.

right now i have a text on my mind which i cannot write down and publish. it’s technical. but i have reached the level of not being naive enough to write it.

not because i am so ‘noble’ and ‘different’ but it’s like i am from the other planet, and i have already some shaped culture, perception and perspective, that in order to be understood i need to put a lot of efforts to write and explain things, approaches, views, much more efforts than i want or able to spend.

also i need opposition, but on the different level. not on the level of ‘why do that?’ but along the lines of ‘there’se a better way of doing that.’. i am sick of explaining why do that. i do not need to do that.

Bulgakov’s Master was sure that things have to be written, even if there will be no reader ever. Sigh. That’s Bulgakov and it’s Master. Not me.

I don’t know how to write when the reader is /dev/null. Well may be I need to invent an imaginary reader. I never wrote ‘dear diary…’. Do you already have your own imaginary reader?

I don’t trust imaginary friends and readers.

I’d better stay alone. (:

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