To continue the previous post, or break it in to pieces.

Thus I avoid participating the work I know how to do good, and I know ‘we’ as a team cannot do it good enough. Because I cannot do everyone’s work myself - then it’s not ‘we’, it’s me. Usually I don’t have such control. Luckily. Because I don’t want to.

It’s very sad for me to participate in something where even if I contribute, the result will be awful. Also I value my efforts, and don’t want to spend them to something I know won’t be good. Sometimes I just cut myself from the reality. You need me to press this button? I am doing that. And pressing the button is a metaphor.

However there are exceptions. The most obvious is I know we cannot build a good country, I know I’ll not be satisfied with the result, and still I am here. And it has to be painful. Because I am not satisfied with what ‘we’ do. I have some ideas, but ‘we’ have others. I believe in ‘this’, but ‘we’ think differently. Still I cannot accept, or to be precise, afford other choices. I accept ‘us’, and that it’s not what I dream of.

Somebody told me recently ‘you cannot feel good, especially in this country’. Well, yes, I agree. But wait, why do you have to feel good? You don’t have to! Feel bad! You’re a human.

In the Simak’s ‘City’, humans decided to give up and go to live as seal like creatures on Jupiter. In order to feel good. And the remaining one city is not enough for humanity to continue development.

There are more important things than just ‘feeling good’. You don’t have to. You are not obliged to. Actually you hardly can anyway.

#unconnected

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